Life's A Mitch.

When you go, can you come and find me. Wanna be beside you when you leave this town. I’ll be waving good bye pretending not to cry. I wanna be someone. If you take me away all the pain will change into a memory of when we were amazing.

I’m going to see My Chemical Romance Friday night at the Hordern Pavilion. The pavilion is the exact place I first saw them play exactly four years ago. I wasn’t excited before but man, am I keen now. Listening to them on the train to Sydney now has me remembering everything I loved them for.

I’m a little nervous. Add to the mix a touch of fear and a whole lot of happiness and I guess you get what I am these days. As I said previously, I got into UWS for high school teaching. This makes everything I’ve been planning and ultimately, dreaming about for, well, I can’t remember exactly how long, true. I am moving to Sydney. I am going to be living with Dean, full time. None of this living out of a suitcase. I can’t wait. I am sick and tired of trains every week. I was over it a month into our relationship but hey, it’s what I had to do. Otherwise, we’d never see each other. 
I still haven’t found a job in Sydney. No such luck whatsoever. However, my mum gave me the idea of Centrelink. I never used to qualify for it but now I’ll be living out of home and quite a distance away from the central coast, maybe I can qualify for a little help. Even if it helps me pay the bills, etc, until I can get on my feet properly and find a job. It’d help a lot with settling into living out of home and starting a new degree.
I’ve enjoyed my uni holidays way too much to want to go back to classes. Especially at a new uni with strange people. I’ve got to make friends all over again. These things happen though. It worries me but at the same time, I’m kind of keen for a new beginning of sorts. I’m excited to start something new and hopefully better myself.
A big part of me longs for the day when I can be a full-time teacher, have regular working hours and a decent salary. It’s kind of sad to want to grow up so quickly, but I do. I want all this study to be done and to embrace full-time work. I’d like the idea of making a decent salary.
I’ve been watching Queer As Folk constantly all week while Dean’s been at work. He rekindled my love for the show. I’ve got all the seasons, just never been bothered to watch them until now.
So what lies ahead? Well, I need to enrol in classes for UWS, apply to Centrelink, hope I get in and somewhere in between, give my notice at work and move. I can’t apply for Youth Allowance until I’m fully enrolled. I THINK I’ve enrolled properly. A new university brings a whole new system to learn. Essentially I think I have the hang of it. As soon as I have solid proof I’m full-time, I’ll send my application away and hope for the best. I’d like to move in the coming weeks if at all possible. I want to get moved and settled in well-before uni starts at the end of next month. It’s just a matter of not wanting to leave work and have absolutely no money. But if Centrelink takes a while to get back to me or I can’t find a job anytime soon, God knows when I can leave work and that just complicates things further.
I have hope that somehow it’ll all work out. It’s just frustrating in the mean time. 

Anonymous asked: That anon VVVV is pissing me off and I would love to cut it's jugular. Mitch take off your anon. Tho I won't be able to be anon, I'll deal, but atleast you won't have to deal with stupid ignoramus comments such as below. Your are the most well put together human being I've ever met. You deem so big. And that inspires me. And that's one of the things I've learnt from you. To always have hope. Anon didn't know shit about you. Lost of love. Keep up the posts! Your are rarely on anymore :(

Awww :’) thank you. I ain’t let tin no anon get me down. It does however make me wonder who said it and why. I’m feeling quite merry and happy go lucky these days. I’m glad I can be an inspiration of one kind or another to people. Sometimes it’s hard to believe in it but what are you gonna do? I’m not on anymore because I just don’t really have the need to post anything. When I do, I will. Until then…

Anonymous asked: You're too young to be so broken.

I’m broken? How exactly am I broken? To be completely honest, life’s pretty good these days.

I got into my teaching degree at UWS!

I am so very happy but also inundated with stressful reading and what not else now trying to enrol and prepare myself for the year ahead. YAY!

Some people are so rude and all-round horrid on train; extremely pushy and quite obnoxious. There’s a fine line between polite and what I just saw which was essentially someone telling someone to move so they themselves could sit down. Find somewhere else to sit you rude prick.

myshenanigansareepic asked: What does it mean to be alive? Btw it was awesome seeing you last night :)

Your heart beating. Obviousness aside, I don’t know Ashleigh. I think it’s something everyone has to ask themselves and develop their own individual response to. For instance, I feel I have more purpose and reason to live since meeting Dean. Having someone to love and live for is a great feeling. But in saying that, I live for myself all the same. There is definitely a clean cut definition between existing and living. Being alive is grasping the world and taking full advantage of every chance you get.

It really was great to see you too. Sorry I had an armful of dishes.

I used to think that the day would never come that I’d see the light and the shade of the morning sun. My morning sun is a drug that brings me near to a childhood I lost, replaced by fear.

fearofshadows asked: Yes I think you would! :)

Thank you :) :)

Anonymous asked: Self centred much?

Hardly. Simply wanting an opinion. Calm down.

Anonymous asked: Have a great day :)

Thank you, you too! :)